Beginning Our Self-Isolation

Early in the first week in isolation, Terry and I felt shaken, both by the changes that were going on so quickly, inside our house and in the world, and by new pressures on our marriage.

As a couple, we began our self-isolation (or self-quarantine) on Friday evening, March 13, 2020. For weeks we had been following the news about the spread of the new coronavirus in other countries, and the first reports from the USA. Our government was pooh-poohing the danger. At first Terry was, too. After all, thousands of people die every year from the flu. Surely the news reports were sensationalism, he thought. But I, at least, was getting enough information to stock up on some extra food supplies, mostly bags of dried beans.

In the second week of March, however, in written news, we started seeing detailed analyses of how the virus had spread in other countries and projections of what rate it would soon be spreading in ours, the severity of the crisis depending upon whether or not we took serious measures to control the spread. Some sources urged us to help “flatten the curve. By reducing the rate at which the virus spread, we could lessen the severity of the burden on our health care system.

Terry, now taking the danger more seriously than I, urged me to cancel my trip to California. I prayed about it and still felt drawn to go. But three nights in a row, in the middle of the night, I found myself awake and anxious. 

On Wednesday, March 11 the World Health Organization declared a pandemic, saying that the coronavirus epidemic would reach all countries on the globe. The president of our country and his aides were still minimizing the danger, but by Thursday, March 12, some big organizations in the US had decided that stringent measures were necessary. Terry explained to me that if the National Basketball Association had suspended its season and the NCAA basketball tournament was canceled, that meant the danger of mass contagion must be great, since multi-million-dollar businesses would not stop their revenues for anything less than a severe threat. In the Philadelphia area, reports of possible exposure by staff or students at certain schools led to the first school closures. Online we found more information and detailed analysis. Two nearby workshops I was scheduled to facilitate during the second half of March were postponed. I canceled my trip to California.

By Thursday night, March 12, we had read enough to be convinced that it was time for isolation, both to protect ourselves (we are both over 60) and to protect others in case we had already caught the virus (which we couldn’t know because the incubation period without symptoms can be long.) We decided it would be okay to one last time attend our regularly scheduled, sparsely attended Meeting for Prayer and Healing, held at local Chester Meeting.  Maintaining large distances between us and refraining from hugs or the laying on of hands, we found ourselves drawn into a deep silence, in prayer. I took a long lingering look at my friends that night as we left the meetinghouse, wondering when we would meet together in person again, and if we would all be together then. 

After we got home, we decided we’d do some last outside errands the next day, and then begin our self-isolation.  However, many others had also become convinced that same day of the seriousness of the crisis. By 8 am the next morning, stores were running out of cleaning supplies and toilet paper. Terry called me from the parking lot of the nearest large grocery store. He said the lot was jammed with cars and he didn’t have time to shop because he was expected to help out at the home of his best friend, who is ill.

Going online immediately to order cleaning supplies and food, I discovered that even online most disinfectants were sold out, and many types of food were scarce, tooAfter hours spent that Friday morning shopping online, I stepped out into the sunshine to walk to the pharmacy. The birds were chirping; I heard them more clearly than usual. The world seemed different, but I realized that it was not the world, but I, who had changed dramatically. I had taken in a new understanding of reality; understanding that a pandemic was unfolding that would have serious, painful consequences for our society and for many communities, families, and individuals, including people I know and love.

At our small local pharmacy, there were only a few customers. I waited as they filled my prescription, and meanwhile I bought two small bottles of 70& alcohol (the limit), one small bottle of hand sanitizer, and some sugar-free cough drops. (All of these items had been “Out of Stock” when I tried to order them online that morning). I paid with a credit card and was not eager to touch the plastic pen used by every customer who signed the key pad. I felt awkward and embarrassed as I wrapped the pen in a tissue before signing my name. After leaving the pharmacy, I looked in the windows of the grocery store nearby and decided not to stand in line with the crowds of people congregating with full shopping carts.

Terry spent most of the day with his friend, knowing it would be the last time they’d be together in person for a while. By the time he was ready to attempt another grocery run, he had heard that there were empty shelves in the nearby stores. So he drove out beyond the suburbs until he found a store that still had food (though no toilet paper, bleach, or alcohol wipes).

After Terry and I both arrived home, we showed each other the supplies we’d gathered, pleased with ourselves. Then we began a new, more vigorous round of wiping doorknobs, counters, faucet handles, etc. Terry’s mother had raised her sons to clean very thoroughly, including mopping floors in a certain way. I was brought up by a father who taught us emergency-preparedness. During my elementary and middle school years my father was worried about nuclear bombs, and I’d taken a workshop with the Girl Scouts on creating a family emergency shelter. Terry and I both think the other person is a bit obsessive about the particular areas in which we were trained as children, but on Friday the 13th these were helpful and complementary skills as we began our isolation for a period of time whose duration is unknown.

That first evening, we felt competent. We watched a movie and ate popcorn.

The next morning, however, we quarreled about something minor. That made us realize we were more affected by the pressures of our new situation than we had realized. This was sobering. After all, we had only just begun.

Beginning Our Self-Isolation: What happened as you learned about the pandemic and contemplated ways your life would need to change? What has that experience been like?

© 2020 Marcelle Martin

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10 Responses to Beginning Our Self-Isolation

  1. Sue Burrus says:

    Hi Marcelle – Thank you for your post. I was notified on March 6 that when I had visited the hospice center near Evergreen Hospital the week before on Feb. 28 to play my harp as a volunteer, I had been exposed to the virus…. I have been self-isolating ever since. I share a house with my daughter, son-in-law and grandchildren ages 18, 17, and 10. Within the next week, both Jodi and Bruce were working from home. Thankfully they still have jobs! The 17 year old’s community college was closed the next week because nursing students and their instructors had been exposed at the Life Care Center, Kirkland, WA – ground zero for the USA. She has finished her winter term classes on-line and is now on “spring break”. 18 year-old’s college (in Pennsylvania) closed for spring break and she begins on-line classes on Monday…. students are not coming back to campus for spring term. The 10-year-old’s elementary school was closed until April 27 and we will get more information as time progresses. My son-in-law was exposed at his work and was really sick last week with a fever of 103… but no testing to know what type of flu he had. He stayed in his room for 4 days after the fever went down…. and I stayed as far away as possible. We use bleach water for cleaning and try to stay out of each other’s way. I’m finding myself working with the 10 year old on things his teacher has put on-line to try and keep him from too many hours of U-tube videos….

    In this surreal time of swirling panic and anxiety, the trees out my window are the same as they’ve always been. The sun shines through new spring leaves. Forsythia and daffodils bloom – splashes of yellow against the green. I join Julian of Norwich in solitude…. “Pain is something for a time, as I see it, for it purges us and makes us know ourselves and ask for mercy… All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.” I sincerely hope that will be true…. Sue

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    • Dear Sue, Thanks so much for sharing your experience, and letting us know something about life at Ground Zero in the USA for this virus. I’m glad you are noticing the sunshine on spring leaves, and the colors. With love, Marcelle

  2. Paula says:

    Thank you, Marcelle, for a lovely essay. I can’t imagine you and Terry quarreling, but these are unusual times. Thank you also to your friend Sue Burrus, because one cannot be reminded too often of the words of Julian–All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well. They are such a tonic in bleak times.

  3. Rachel in Edinburgh says:

    Dear Marcelle, I hope you stay well and cheerful! Love, Rachel

  4. kariefiroozmand says:

    Marcelle, thank you for sharing this. It is good to hear from you. I hope you and yours remain well.

  5. Homer Wood says:

    Thank you Marcelle. I am trying to stay in the moment, but often I don’t succeed. As an older human, I realize that I am at greater risk. I also find myself worrying about my 3 children, who aren’t really children anymore. At the present time they are able to stay in their homes.
    As always, thank you for taking the time to update us. love, Homer

    • Dear Homer, Focusing on the presence of Spirit and divine love is something I need to remind myself to do, over and over again, in the face of my very human tendency to focus on what I fear. I’m glad to hear from you. Thanks for writing! Love, Marcelle

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